Soon enough

Seasons, friends, memories, and times of love and joy will return. It might not seem so, but I have to have the faith to oversee. Undoubtedly I’ve become so bitter with so many things in my life. I don’t talk about it because there’s really no one who could really understand where i come from. I’m terrible at explaining my feelings to individuals. I can think of so many instances where someone completely tore me a new one due to the fact that I suck at describing my state of mind. I’m not hiding. I’m not being selfish. I find myself being so indifferent from everyone in my life and it’s kind of aggravating. No matter how abstract my status is. I know things are going to change for me, my family, and friends. In fact they have been. I’m leaving for Cape May in March. And that’s a decision I know is going to have an affect on me and the people I love. I haven’t really talked about it much. maybe it’s because I don’t want it to be a big deal because it shouldn’t be, or I hope it wont be. Nevertheless, The Son who wanted everyone to just get along won’t be home. The friend who never crapped on his friends will be miles away. The brother who was in the middle of every situation will be gone in pursuit of trying to provide a living. Things are going to be different, but I have faith that a new definition of joy, happiness, and having a life full of having a good time and enjoyment will be redefined to my lived ones. I promise.